I was texting with my Dad the other day and he asked me how things were going for me in Bali. The only thing I could respond with was a gif of a rollercoaster.
Packing up your life, storing it in a garage, leaving all things comforting and familiar...it's a roller coaster ride of emotion. Sometimes the ups and downs are day to day, sometimes hour by hour. Oh, and guess what? That saying, "wherever you go there you are". It's for reals. I am on the opposite side of the world from my home and......
One of the biggest things I work on with clients is self-compassion. The Universe thought it was time for me to do a little work of my own on that skill. Since my arrival here in Bali (6 weeks ago!), I have been gifted many opportunities to lean into self compassion, or turn my head and ignore it. I feel proud to say, more often than not, I have leaned into it. Not always though.
You know that shame voice that I think most, if not all, of us has? The one that starts most of its commentary with "You should..."? It can be a real beast. And guess what, no matter what country in the world you happen to be in, it comes along in your carry on luggage.
The practice is to meet that shame voice with as much compassion as you can muster. Follow the "you should" commentary with "that's ok, I'm choosing this right now" or "thanks, but I don't listen to you anymore" or "shush, you don't need to be afraid. I've got this".
So here I am, in this gorgeous, dirty, hot, sweaty, joyful, loving, crazy, swirling with motorbikes country. Each day another opportunity. Each day a choice. Lean in? Ignore? One moment, one day at a time.
What are you choosing today?
Banyak berkah (many blessings),