Somewhere along the way in therapist training school I was taught that
a) we therapists are not supposed to self-disclose "to much" and
b) if we choose to, it must be something we have done a lot of processing of, and be solely for the purpose of the client's highest good. Or something like that anyway.
Since I don't feel like being a rule follower right now I'm going to disclose something that I'm just in the middle of understanding and processing about myself. Right. This. Minute.
I have not been showing up in my life with my whole heart. I have been operating from a place, unbeknownst to me until today, of trying to control what others see and think about me rather than from a truly authentic place. All the while thinking I am connecting deeply with people, I've actually been a bit like the wizard in The Wizard of Oz, "don't pay attention to the man behind the curtain"! I think that's what he says anyway.
This is not a revelation to me that feels super awesome to be sure. And, I am deeply committed to walking my talk. Vulnerability can be a scary ass feeling AND I know deep in my bones that is the way to create intimacy and connection. And that is what I want so very much. And my heart is beating a little faster, my hands are shaking a bit as I type. And, I'm going to share this with you anyway because I want to connect with you from my most authentic self. You, and I, are more important to me than my fear.
So my question for you today is, are you showing up fully and authentically in your life? If your answer is no, what do you think is stopping you? What stories or old beliefs are sabotaging you?
Are you ready to dive in deep and explore your old beliefs so we can uncover your deepest desires? I'm on the journey with you, let's work through this shit together! Send me an email and let's talk! heatherdevore.lpc@gmail.com. I can't wait to hear from you!